Just Complaining.

***All names have been changed, with the exception of brother Ty.***

To premise the complaint, the hubs and I are going to Wenatchee this weekend, about 3 hours away from the home front.

I'm kind of hurt at Hubs's friends. Brian and Breanne were going to have a poker night but they waited because Steve and Emily were going to be out of town. Then they waited because Adam and Noelle were going to be out of town. Now Sam, who usually comes to poker night as well, Hubs and I are going to be out of town and they're having poker night anyway. Hubs is like "whatever" but it slightly offended me. Hubs said Breanne just must not like me. I think he was joking....I hope so. (He said she really wanted to hang out with Noelle and that's why they waited until she and Adam could go.) I may say something about it next time we all get together, though hopefully it won't embarrass or make Hubs mad.
I pretty much want to just stay at home forever with Hubs and have family visit us and that's it. I'm getting done with people. You NEVER leave high school! I feel awkward and out of place again. We're the least popular. Or at least I am. I fit in the least.
Noelle and Emily are planning a baby shower for Breanne. It's going to be a "meet the baby" shower after the baby is born. And she wants to have it when Brian is on maternity leave. The baby is due sometime in September and he gets 3 weeks off. I think asking me to help later was an after thought because when Breanne told me they were planning it for her, I told her that I didn't know about it and was sad they didn't even ask me if I wanted to help and I think she told Noelle. I hope they remember I said mine is October 4th. I was told yesterday that they're going to discuss it this Saturday when everyone gets together. I'm all "uh...guys? I won't be there" and Noelle said they'll probably just choose a date. Arg.
When I tell this kind of stuff to Hubs he kind of makes it sound like it's my fault because I don't involve myself more. That's not how I am! I tell him I try but I'm not him. I'm not good at talking to people. He's like my mom and brother Ty. They can talk to anybody.
I wish my friends lived in Tacoma so I'd have people to hang out with. Hubs wants me to hang out with his friends more, even without him but it's not going to happen. It's not that I don't like them and don't want to hang out with them, I'm just not good at it. They all hang out and talk and stuff and it makes me sad when I hear about it. Example: Noelle says stuff like "oh I was talking to Breanne the other day". Nobody calls me. :( Not that I call them either. I'm not outgoing like that, I'm more shy I guess.
My friends--I don't know how I even got friends, with the way I act. I guess I just used to be better at it-- have cars but not money to buy gas to come visit me and/or nobody likes/wants to drive that far anyway. And then we often don't have money to do anything once they get out here. We used to just hang all the time, never really doing anything but now I feel like if they drive all the way out here we should do something other than watch TV and talk.