Depressing.

I'm so sick and tired of....well....everything.

Money, bills, people, the weather, etc, etc.

First Baseball Game

Drew took Hubs, Bops Monster and me to a Rainer's game today.  It was the Monster's first game.  

He fell asleep sometime around the 3rd inning and woke up right at the beginning of the 9th.  Hubs took him down to the dudes who sit in chairs on the field behind/next to 1st base and got a foul ball.

We were going to leave during the 9th and watch the fireworks from our car but they wouldn't let us walk where we needed to go (because of the fireworks) so the dude at the gate let us back in and we watched from the stairs.  I was worried Monster would be scared but he loved it.  He stared and laughed.

Boo.

Ug.

I just want to go curl up on the couch between my dad and mom and watch TV.

Cars

I want an 84 Honda Accord.  For a few years right after high school, my sister and I shared a white one that looked like this ---------------------->

We had a lot of good times in that car.  Even though most modes of transportation are "female", like Betty Lou-my 63 Dart, we named it Bender after a favorite character in a favorite movie.  (If you can name the movie you win the grand prize of knowing you may be decent at the game "Scene It".  Way to go.)  Realistically I decided I should get SUV because, thanks to Mallery for driving, I now know it's way easier to get Bops in and out of his car seat if it's in an SUV than a low sedan.  However, NONE of this is a possibility right now because we need to pay bills and eat.

Networked Blogs

Since I added this blog to the NetworkedBlogs on Facebook, I figured I should try typing a blog now and then. When I'm not trying to entertain Bops I'm on the computer anyway so hopefully I'll find the time to take a break from Facebookery and type something.

That's all I got for now.  Bops needs entertaining!

It's been awhile....how ya been?

Holy canoli. It's been forever since I typed a blog. I kind of forgot I had it.

First off, that picture is from November 14th 2009. That was my due date. Baby was born November 15th 2009.

Well, since the last post we've had our baby. I went natural. Active labor was only 5 hours. Day 2 of our hospital stay I got hit with postpartum depression. It usually takes longer to set in (many women get postpartum blues right away and PPD comes later if at all) but I got diagnosed right away because of the way I was feeling and the fact that when I wasn't sleeping I was crying. I'm on meds and they seem to help. Plus I have an excellent group of friends and family for support. They are amazing. I love them all. Anywho, we couldn't decide on a middle name so he got two. I have a habit of calling him Bops, Bops Monster or Monster.
We also have a dog now. She's 2 years old and either a runt or a mix. She looks like a yellow lab but smaller. She's a nice size--not too small but not huge--and she's good with kids. We're excited to have Bops grow up with a dog.
Ummmmmmmm.......that's all I got right now.
Chow.

30 Weeks

How far along? 30 weeks 1 day
Total weight gain/loss: +29 lbs
Maternity clothes? Pants: Yes. Shirts: Some are some aren't.
Stretch marks: None.
Sleep: Fairly well. I wake up a few time to go to the bathroom, but I haven't had too much trouble falling asleep. I do seem to sleep in later, which I shall cherish while I can.
Best moment this week: My hubby suprising me with candy. Also, hubby taking me to Target to look at baby stuff.

Movement: It seems like less but I may be getting used to it more. My doctor check and BabyMac is healthy.
Food cravings: None really. I'll see something and think it sounds good and want it, but nothing weird and I don't have to rush out or send my husband to the store to get it.
Gender: Still a boy.
Labor Signs: None.
Belly Button in or out? Out.
What I miss: Being skinny.
What I am looking forward to: Going to more stores and looking at baby stuff with my hubby.
Weekly Wisdom: Relax.
Milestones: 30 weeks seems like a big milestone.

Just Complaining.

***All names have been changed, with the exception of brother Ty.***

To premise the complaint, the hubs and I are going to Wenatchee this weekend, about 3 hours away from the home front.

I'm kind of hurt at Hubs's friends. Brian and Breanne were going to have a poker night but they waited because Steve and Emily were going to be out of town. Then they waited because Adam and Noelle were going to be out of town. Now Sam, who usually comes to poker night as well, Hubs and I are going to be out of town and they're having poker night anyway. Hubs is like "whatever" but it slightly offended me. Hubs said Breanne just must not like me. I think he was joking....I hope so. (He said she really wanted to hang out with Noelle and that's why they waited until she and Adam could go.) I may say something about it next time we all get together, though hopefully it won't embarrass or make Hubs mad.
I pretty much want to just stay at home forever with Hubs and have family visit us and that's it. I'm getting done with people. You NEVER leave high school! I feel awkward and out of place again. We're the least popular. Or at least I am. I fit in the least.
Noelle and Emily are planning a baby shower for Breanne. It's going to be a "meet the baby" shower after the baby is born. And she wants to have it when Brian is on maternity leave. The baby is due sometime in September and he gets 3 weeks off. I think asking me to help later was an after thought because when Breanne told me they were planning it for her, I told her that I didn't know about it and was sad they didn't even ask me if I wanted to help and I think she told Noelle. I hope they remember I said mine is October 4th. I was told yesterday that they're going to discuss it this Saturday when everyone gets together. I'm all "uh...guys? I won't be there" and Noelle said they'll probably just choose a date. Arg.
When I tell this kind of stuff to Hubs he kind of makes it sound like it's my fault because I don't involve myself more. That's not how I am! I tell him I try but I'm not him. I'm not good at talking to people. He's like my mom and brother Ty. They can talk to anybody.
I wish my friends lived in Tacoma so I'd have people to hang out with. Hubs wants me to hang out with his friends more, even without him but it's not going to happen. It's not that I don't like them and don't want to hang out with them, I'm just not good at it. They all hang out and talk and stuff and it makes me sad when I hear about it. Example: Noelle says stuff like "oh I was talking to Breanne the other day". Nobody calls me. :( Not that I call them either. I'm not outgoing like that, I'm more shy I guess.
My friends--I don't know how I even got friends, with the way I act. I guess I just used to be better at it-- have cars but not money to buy gas to come visit me and/or nobody likes/wants to drive that far anyway. And then we often don't have money to do anything once they get out here. We used to just hang all the time, never really doing anything but now I feel like if they drive all the way out here we should do something other than watch TV and talk.

28 Weeks

How far along? 28 Weeks 4 Days
Total weight gain/loss: +24 lbs
Maternity clothes? Pants: Yes. Shirts: Some are some aren't.
Stretch marks: None.
Sleep: Ok. I get a weird feeling in my throat occasionally that makes it a bit hard to fall asleep.
Best moment this week: Ug. This week hasn't been that great actually. (Hense the fake smile in the photo.) I guess the best moment would be my husband coming home from work and giving me a giant hug.
Movement: Yes!
Food cravings: None. Still, nothing ever really sounds or looks good to me. Very hard deciding what to have for lunch and dinner.
Gender: A boy.
Labor Signs: None.
Belly Button in or out? Mostly out.
What I miss: The way I used to put on shoes.
What I am looking forward to: Going to stores and looking at baby stuff with my hubby.

Weekly Wisdom: Sometimes it's better to just cry than to try and hold it in.
Milestones: I'm in the 3rd trimester!

Glucose & Ultrasound

I keep forgetting I have this blog!

Well, last Monday I had my 1 hour glucose test. Thank God I passed--I'd hate to find out what the 3 hour test entails. Or maybe it's just waiting 3 hours instead of 1 to take blood. I got to choose between 3 flavors: orange, fruit punch or lemon lime. I had fruit punch. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but it's not something that I want to drink regularly. Or at all in fact. So I drank it around 915am then had the regular doctor check up. Since I'm in the 3rd trimester now we talked a bit about finding a birthing class and who we want for a baby doctor and stuff so it went a bit longer than usual. Still, it was only about 20 minutes. After the doctor stepped out of the room I started reading. Then I got hot. Really hot. I started sweating and thought I was going to puke so I rushed to the bathroom. I didn't throw up. It was a bit cooler in there and it made me feel slightly better. I went back to the room and started reading again. And again I started getting hot and sweaty. I went to the bathroom again but didn't throw up. I came back to the room and laid on the exam chair. My doctor came back in and I asked her if it usually made people feel sick. She said it happens a lot and then called me silly because I didn't recline the chair. She made it to where I could lay down and told me the nurse would be in soon to take my blood. The nurse came in and asked how I was doing and if I felt dizzy. I didn't feel dizzy and I was able to move to a different chair. She took my blood and I started to feel weak so she had me lay down back on the exam table. She told me to just rest for awhile. I dozed on and off for awhile. The nurse and doctor came back in and told me I was looking peckish and to keep resting. I dozed off some more. When I woke up I was feeling slightly better so I sat up. It didn't take long for the nurse and doctor to notice me and ask if I was feeling better. I said I was and they told me to be careful, go straight home and eat some protein when I got there. I probably shouldn't have driven because I still felt a bit off but I just wanted to go home. When I got there I ate and took a nap.

At the appointment, before I got sick, the doctor told me I'm measuring small and put in an order for an ultrasound. That afternoon after I got home and ate but before I took a nap, I called and made an appointment for the next day. I'm assuming the baby is just fine since the ultrasound tech didn't act like anything was wrong. Baby's heartbeat was normal. I don't mind ultrasounds now because I don't have to drink as much water and baby is more obviously a baby. It's so crazy to see him. It's hard to believe it's real! I haven't heard from the doctor, who got the results of the ultrasound that same afternoon, so I'm guessing baby is measuring just fine.